No real title, just a chat

I know people are reading this because I have this neat stat counter on here now (you can't see it, but it is there) ;) Not that I didn't hope that other people might eventually read it, but this blog is more my way of working out my thoughts than it is for others... I am just hoping that by letting other people read them, they might see something that they identify with or see something new that they hadn't thought about before.

Anyway, since more than just my husband and sister have been reading...I don't know who you are, but I just wanted to explain something about me. I love God. I am selfish, prideful, (at times I can be hateful). I am pretty self absorbed...right now a lot of my relationship with God is about 'me'. I went through a good period of my love of God bearing fruit, but for right now...its about me getting to know him. Listening, learning.

So, if my posts come across as self absorbed, please grant me a little grace. I know that and it is something I am working on...but I am working on some other stuff in real life too, stuff that I won't discuss on here, but it is a little scary and it is stuff that I am just trying to figure out. In the meantime, it helps me to use this blog to work out my thoughts, and if it appears I am pontificating...well, you don't have to read it. ;) For those who don't know...the title is about doing works. Fruit is another word for works. Good fruit is works that we do to glorify God. Bad works (rotten fruit) are works that glorify ourselves.

This is more me working out my relationship with the Lord. I yearn to know him more and this is my way of being able to go back and read things that I understood at one point, that maybe I am not getting now. If I go back and read what I wrote, then I sometimes can get back to bearing real fruit in the world (I hope).

I can't change anyone else. I can only change me. I can pray for others so that God changes them. But hopefully, by asking God to help change me and by praying for them, I get a little closer to him. I forget to ask God to change MY heart sometimes, for a little while. But, when I remember, it brings me full circle again. I get a little peace for a little while.

Lots of "I" in my posts. Sorry.

God bless and thanks for 'listening'.