The Real Presence

I was thinking about this, Sunday during Holy Eucharist.

Since I have been thinking more about Jesus and the transubstantiation of the bread, I have been going over my journey toward Christ.

I like kneeling at church, because I want to be sure that I am humble before that Lord and fall to my knees before him. Now is a good time to start. Kneeling when I come into church, recognizing his presence, is a good start. Kneeling in his presence in this life, is a good start, it is humbling. Humbling ourselves is ALWAYS good.

For some reason that I cannot understand, since I have begun to understand transubstantiation better, whenever the transubstantiation occurs, I begin crying in church, sometimes it starts when we are saying, "Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldst come under my roof, but speak the word only and my soul shall be healed." It doesn't stop until after church has ended (it has been going on for months now, my kids keep asking me, "Mom, what's wrong?"). All I can think is of the sacrifice Jesus made for me. Me, personally. It is like coming face to face with what a horrible person I am, and Jesus' love telling me that He knows I am trying and still loves me. I don't know if I am crying because He has taken my sin from me and my love for Him doing that for me hurts so much?

I don't see this as idolatry, I see this as recognizing Jesus' real presence. Don't you feel different after receiving Him? Recognizing His real presence is a humbling experience. As humans, we of flesh want to avoid humility. It 'feels wrong.' That humility is good for us though.

God bless